nobody

it's raining

pitter-patter on the tin roof

it's cold

yet your presence makes me warm

and for a minute

it seems like everything might be ok

now it's sunny

sunlight turns my hair auburn

makes you laugh and dance

we carve our names in ancient trees

sweaty, sticky hugs

and you are everything

but here come the shadows,

the shadows, the shadows,

the dark engulfs everything

i look over and reach for your hand

and you aren't there

i wake up--

if you love a thousand things,

you get a million lies,

a billion arrows in the heart,

and far too many goodbyes

you're a fool and you know it

no love is eternal

and now i'm by myself

i turn up the music

until i hear nothing else

i smile to myself

and i close my eyes

maybe i'm not alone

it's too late at night

but nobody minds

i spend time with fake people

these people of paper

are always there for me

but they can only be so much

and here comes the world

ready to shatter everything

loose music notes fly away

and the pages disintegrate in my hands

i clutch them as i cry 

but they fall out of my grasp

if you love a few things,

you will have them taken from you

crack, crack, crack,

there goes your heart

you didn't deserve anything anyway

happiness is made-up

i walk fast down the street

hands in pockets, head down

i've gotten used to holding myself back

i haven't felt emotions in a while

so maybe i'll take a gamble

i don't even care anymore

i feel myself slipping away

into another trauma-story

why did i do this again?

i should've been more careful

the saddest thing about betrayal

is that it never comes from your enemies

if you love anything at all,

satan will not care

and so you do what's safest:

you love nobody,

you trust nobody,

you are nobody.