Hellllooo so I created this blog one year ago! I remember I was bored at, like, 1am so I was scrolling through all the Google App things and I was like… “hmmmmm Blogger”.
So yeah this blog was made because I was bored when I could and should have been sleeping. But yeah, I kinda like it now. It’s a great place to post my cringey rants. Because nobody really reads it.
One of my friends and I were once talking about books and I said “the only bad thing about reading so many books is that you move on so quickly and forget all the books you’ve read” and he said “is that why you have a blog? So you can remember the books you’ve read?” And that was like a surprise moment because I’d never thought about it in that way. But that was actually smart.
I have changed a lot since this time last year. I mean, not really. But also… kinda.
…………actually yeah not much at all. I was about to write a boring and unnecessary paragraph but nope. I’m sure that I have actually changed quite a bit but I can’t really think of anything at the moment. Except that my music taste has changed a tiny bit (still a-ha though).
Ok I’m going to write a paragraph on my music taste because I literally have nothing better to do. I posted a post (I’m great with words, I know) on this blog around this time last year about my music taste and… oh my goodness… yes it has changed.
So I’m going to rant about my music taste. Ok. Um nobody cares. But still.
My favourite band is still a-ha, of course. But. My second favourite band now is The Smiths (their music is so relatable and I don’t think that’s a good thing). I would say that Arcade Fire comes next. I am embarrassed because this time last year, I only knew about three Arcade Fire songs. And yeah, INXS is still up there but I think they’d sit at my fourth-favourite band.
My favourite song is actually the same as last year — Cosy Prisons by a-ha. It is an amazing song, and the lyrics just sum up my mentally-ill brain so so well. I mean, I don’t think that Magne Furuholmen’s intention when he wrote the song was to sum up a teenage girl’s experience of OCD, but that’s what he did. I mean, some of the lyrics (like the “transatlantic shopping spree”, the “hiding out in a salad bar” and the “bottled wine is vinegar tomorrow”) don’t apply to me, but others really really do.
My second-favourite song is probably I Know it’s Over by The Smiths. It, too, has some lyrics that apply to me as a mentally ill person. And also, as an aroace person. Some of the lyrics apply to only one of these aspects of me, but there are a few sentences that apply to both. This song is so so so powerful. My dad, whose favourite band is The Smiths, once said that he thought that I Know it’s Over is the second-saddest song in the world (he said that the saddest is Asleep by The Smiths). The raw emotion that is conveyed through Morrissey’s voice in this song is just heartbreaking. It’s something that Cosy Prisons doesn’t quite have. There’s this one part of I Know it’s Over that is just so heartbreaking because of the beautiful and mournful way it’s sung, and also because of the lyrics being repeated, but it also just makes you want to sing along. The song also has like a waltzy-feel that I really like. It’s the type of song that I would imagine two people in a movie would dance to in the rain after a tragedy occurred… which is kinda ironic and stupid of me because the song is literally about being alone.
I don’t know what my third-favourite song would be. The thing about a-ha is that the majority of their songs are love songs. Especially from earlier in their career. Whereas The Smiths’ songs are nearly anything but. Maybe I like The Smiths’ lyrics better but a-ha’s music better. I don’t know. Oh, and a message to Morrissey: I think the more widespread word for “humasexual” is “greysexual”.
I may not be able to rank my favourite songs in order but I am going to rank my top five Smiths and a-ha songs.
Top 5 a-ha:
1. Cosy Prisons
2. Out of Blue Comes Green
3. Scoundrel Days
4. How Sweet it Was
5. Slender Frame
Waiting for Her, Solace, East of the Sun, Keeper of the Flame, The Summers of Our Youth, and for some reason the Foot of the Mountain version of Nothing Is Keeping You Here are up there too!
Top 5 The Smiths:
1. I Know it’s Over
2. What Difference Does it Make?
3. Last Night I Dreamt That Somebody Loved Me
4. Pretty Girls Make Graves
5. William, it was Really Nothing
Still Ill, A Rush and A Push and the Land is Ours, This Charming Man and The Queen is Dead are also up there.
I’m kind of laughing at the fact that my second-favourite song last year was Burn. I totally understand why though. I had gone through a “friendship break up” and I felt like Burn was a song that summed up how I felt, because I was still in my Hamilton phase. I only just realised how hard this time last year would have been for me because I was still kinda clinging onto that friendship.Yeah, kinda embarrassing, I know. I should just be able to move on. But nope. Anyway.
I’ve written some strange blog posts this year. My first blog post was very awkward. And that wasn’t even the worst one. The 2000-word rant about a dead bird probably takes that place.
This year probably won’t be any different. Oh well. I kinda like this blog. I haven’t posted much except book reviews/rants for a while, so hopefully once I get my laptop back I can post some more of my cringey gay fanfics or something. I dunno. I should probably stop ranting now. I’m sitting in a park with Peggy. She is probably bored. I probably look like a phone-obsessed teenager. I should have brought my brick. By “brick”, I mean my copy of Kingdom of Ash.
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